Still Kickin'
Not to worry. Lucy isn't dead yet. But life does go on and time takes its toll. Lucy had a fall in the furniture store and has spent the last weeks in recovery (and a drug-induced stupor.) But it's all good, as the kids say. And that's why I want to keep blogging.
Sometimes I'm not sure having my wits about me is a blessing at this age. Our family has been struggling since my fall. The old saying, "When you get old you get more so," seems painfully true. My mind has always been hyperactive but now it seems I can't shut it off. After my fall, which, thanks honestly for your concern, wasn't so terrible, my thinking seems to be even more vigilant and acute. It ain't fun.
With my unerring 20-20 hindsight I'm able to see that my fear of losing personal control has resulted in an attempt to "uber-control" everyone and everything around me. This just won't do in a a family of overt-individualists. After Carole threatened to move out and/or throw herself from a moving car I decided to chill out. Not that I want to. Deep down I still feel I have the best answers.
HOWEVER, as I said before, I'd rather be happy than right. Without exception this is a good philosophy---if not an comfortable reality. Things, other than my personal drama, are blessed in our family. Only two more weeks until Ben/Teresa's wedding. I'm posting an outrageous and alternative engagement photo---not that I think it's appropriate. But anyway, there's more to come.
So. Lucy is still alive and blogging. And grateful for every day.
Sometimes I'm not sure having my wits about me is a blessing at this age. Our family has been struggling since my fall. The old saying, "When you get old you get more so," seems painfully true. My mind has always been hyperactive but now it seems I can't shut it off. After my fall, which, thanks honestly for your concern, wasn't so terrible, my thinking seems to be even more vigilant and acute. It ain't fun.
With my unerring 20-20 hindsight I'm able to see that my fear of losing personal control has resulted in an attempt to "uber-control" everyone and everything around me. This just won't do in a a family of overt-individualists. After Carole threatened to move out and/or throw herself from a moving car I decided to chill out. Not that I want to. Deep down I still feel I have the best answers.
HOWEVER, as I said before, I'd rather be happy than right. Without exception this is a good philosophy---if not an comfortable reality. Things, other than my personal drama, are blessed in our family. Only two more weeks until Ben/Teresa's wedding. I'm posting an outrageous and alternative engagement photo---not that I think it's appropriate. But anyway, there's more to come.
So. Lucy is still alive and blogging. And grateful for every day.
18 Comments:
At 7:52 PM, Anonymous said…
sounds as if it's hard to put together the notion that the ageing body is not quite up to the still-lively mind. i know that one! looking forward to your feeling more spritely--and continued blogging.
At 8:44 PM, Rain Trueax said…
Glad you are doing better and sounds like you have gained some insights for family relationships that should be helpful. We do have to adjust as we age but nobody likes it-- I don't think...
At 10:38 PM, Ann (bunnygirl) said…
I'm sure with such an excellent and busy mind as yours, you can find something to occupy yourself with that won't drive the family crazy.
Welcome back, and be careful out there!
At 11:48 PM, Anonymous said…
Oh Lucy, good to have you back! I have been visiting daily, waiting for a post!
And a good one it is!
Love
Claude
At 7:38 AM, Joy Des Jardins said…
I've been wondering what's been happening with you Lucy. Now I know. I'm just glad you're okay and back with us. I know what you mean about your hyperactive mind...it's difficult when your body is going at a different pace....I totally get that. You seem to know how to adjust Lucy...I admire that. Take care of yourself sweet lady...you have that wedding coming up.
At 8:12 AM, Roberta S said…
Dear Lucy,
Sorry to hear you had a fall but glad to hear you are recovering. You are precious. That is apparent in the way you expressed thoughts in this post about control vs retreat. You are a special person that we all care about so go ahead, let the overactive mind roar. Control us as much as you like. We are all wanting your wisdom, longing to listen, and looking forward to the alternative engagement photo. Best to you.
Roberta
At 9:41 AM, Bev Sykes said…
So glad to hear you'r back and that you're soldiering on in spite of everything!
At 2:00 PM, Anonymous said…
Hey, you take care - and don't be soooo hard on yourself lady! ;)
At 3:41 PM, Code Yellow Mom said…
"I'd rather be happy than right." I like that. And it is uncomfortable, but we do have to choose between the two sometimes, don't we?
Take care of yourself.
P.S. I love your blog.
At 4:17 PM, Anonymous said…
As you know, I was very worried about you (and my blog today mentioned that)
I'm just happy you're alright. But I sure did miss your postings.
AND pssssss.....you probably ARE right...heck, those years behind you count for something.
At 10:09 AM, Anonymous said…
Hi Lucy
I was without my computer since last Tuesday. We had a terrible rain storm here, it was so bad that it did damage to my Apple. Back in business now and just catching up with your blog.
Sorry to hear that you had a fall but happy to see that Lucy is back in the saddle again.
Sending you my best wishes, take care!!
At 6:01 PM, OldLady Of The Hills said…
So glad to know you are back blogging but so sorry to know you took a fall my dear Lucy! You must not do thar, my dear....We need you up and about and mobile!
I truly am glad you are okay my dear...
At 9:29 PM, kenju said…
Lucy, welcome back. I am so glad to know that no permanent harm was done. Please be careful from now on. We don't want to lose you, even for a week or two!
At 10:20 PM, Jamie Dawn said…
I was wondering what was up. I guess something was actually "down" - as in falling down. You poor thing!
I'm so sorry you fell and had to recouperate and depend on the help of inferior humans. Those people, even if they ARE family, just don't have the intellect that you have. You'll just have to put up with them, since you love them and all. :)
It is so nice to have you blogging again!!
I'm glad you still have your good humor and quick wit.
At 11:17 PM, Kay Dennison said…
Welcome back, Lucy! Glad you're still kicking! I just got back myself & am catching up on my blogosphere buddies. Life has a way of intruding upon one's fun, doesn't it? Take care of yourself, girlfriend! We need your wit & wisdom! Love you, gal!
At 6:49 AM, Anonymous said…
Lucy,
Your wisdom is important to all of us. I want to thank you for your honest evaluation of growing older. You see we all have the same fears and at least for me, it is helpful to know I am not alone.
At 7:42 PM, Cowtown Pattie said…
Our Lucy is back the saddle again!
Good for you, and glad you are okay!
At 9:18 PM, Chancy said…
Oh Lucy, I did not know about your fall and subsequent recovery. Get all better real soon and don't give up the blogging ship. We would all mutiny
PS: Did the furniture store have anything that really stopped you in your tracks, bedazzling you with it's beauty until you were blinded with desire and fell down gripped with the reality that you must have said object?
If so, sue the bastards and settle for the merchandise
Seriously Lucy, I am so glad you are much better.
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