Golden Lucy's Spiral Journal

Going on 87...Savoring and Surviving the Senior Years

Saturday, June 23, 2007

Loving It in the Land of the Living





















Lucy has had a tough few weeks but has prevailed over crisis, fear and depression---not all mine, by the bye. (I had to look up the spelling of that expression---kind of a surprise!) In any case, I never stopped needing and loving to read my blogging friends. To explain my posting absence would be a boring recital---especially for me. However, in retrospect it's all been for the best. Growth seldom comes without pain---or at least frustration, provocation and/or aggravation. Preferably not all at the same time.

So many things to reflect on. Where to start? Think I'll start with gratitude. There's a fabulous circle of bloggers that mean the world to me---and I mean that with all my heart. I started to name you but the list was tooo long---such a perfectly lovely fact! But you know who you are----I've previously acknowledged Ronni, Millie, Teri, Chancy and my darling Claude for helping me get on my feet as a blogger. But for those faithful friends who came and came back to encourage me later I send my sincerest and heartfelt gratitude and love. I'll take your loving loyalty with me to great beyond! Of course that goes for my kinfolk as well. ..But most of all to my creator.

After gratitude comes intention. I intend to continue to try to be an independent and positive thinker; a fearless and forgiving friend/relative and probably most functionally important, an old lady with an unfailing sense of humor---especially when it comes to myself. Finally, I accept that intention is not the same as completed action (even though I always pray it is.)

I will let the past remain there. I will try new things. I will stop eating fried food---or cooking it for my family. I will not hide behind the curtains waiting for my 60+ year old children to come home at night. I will try things that scare me and not blame others when I'm still scared. I will be honest about admitting it is time for me to stop driving (when hell freezes over) and I'll continue to have my nails and hair done regularly by Marianne---the best beautician and listener in the West---because I'm worth it.

I'm typing this myself. That is to say, this has taken a good part of what's left of my life to produce five short paragraphs. I'm damn proud of myself. Here are some pictures from the last few weeks that illustrate the balance of joy and sorrow I hope to continue cultivating in my life. I truly love you all.

15 Comments:

  • At 1:01 AM, Blogger bunnygirl said…

    I'm glad you're okay, Lucy! I've kept you on my bloglines and I wonder often how you're doing.

    Stay in touch!

     
  • At 5:51 AM, Blogger Joy Des Jardins said…

    It's good to hear you Lucy...you are so often in my thoughts. Always coming by to check on you. Bless your 'forever young' heart.

     
  • At 7:33 AM, Blogger kenju said…

    I think of you often too, Lucy, and it is great to see your name in bold at Bloglines. I hope everything is okay now. The photos are lovely to see. What happened to the poor doggie?

     
  • At 2:29 PM, Anonymous Claude said…

    Yeah! Lucy! You're here! You don't know how many times I've checked with your blog. I love to read your posts. You know what you should do? Write less at a time, since you find it tiring, but more often! How is that?
    I love your New Year's resolutions in June ;)
    I never make resolutions because I can never keep them ;)
    Lots of love from Claude!

     
  • At 3:39 AM, Anonymous Claude said…

    Lucy, I left a little something for you on my blog
    http://blogginginparis.com/2007/06/25/golden-lucy-is-back-on-line/

     
  • At 4:49 AM, Anonymous Freda said…

    Great to see you back in action and full of determination. Keep on blogging.

     
  • At 5:19 AM, Blogger tut-tut said…

    Great sentiments and style indeed. I've come to your blog via Claude's and I'm glad I did.

     
  • At 6:43 AM, Anonymous AlwaysQuestion said…

    Good to see you, Lucy!

     
  • At 11:44 AM, Blogger Chancy said…

    Atta Girl, Lucy!!!!!

    Great to learn you are ok.

    Cheers

     
  • At 11:48 AM, Anonymous millie garfield said…

    Hi Lucy

    I've visited you a number of times and was concerned that you weren't posting and hoping you and your family were ok.

    Happy to see you back on board. You look really good in those photos.

    Stay well, stay well, stay well and keep blogging!! ;)

     
  • At 7:14 AM, Blogger Savtadotty said…

    I was away and didn't know you were away too! It's great to know you're back!

     
  • At 2:36 PM, Anonymous Terri said…

    I was very happy to read on Claude's blog that you had posted. I've been back a number of times to check...and was always disappointed.
    I do hope you'll continue to blog because I've always loved your stories.
    Stay healthy and know I'm thinking of you. Best to you, Lucy.

     
  • At 10:02 PM, Blogger OldOldLady Of The Hills said…

    I am not on Bloglines, my dear...(Maybe I should be..._) So I didn't know there was a NEW post up! And I am SOOOOOOO Happy you are back blogging....The Blogesphere needs you my dear Lucy...YOU INSPIRE ALL OF US, but, especially me! HUGS My Dear!

     
  • At 8:34 PM, Blogger Suzann said…

    Truly, truly dear Lucy. We love you right back. Always good to read your posts.

     
  • At 4:23 PM, Blogger Kay Dennison said…

    Golly gee whiz!!!!!!!!!!!! It's so good to see you poating again, Lucy! I was soooooooo worried about you.

     

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